My body is changing,
although sometimes it feels
hideously awkward and out of control.
Feelings sweep around me like a wildfire,
and yearnings I do not understand
blaze like a firestorm in my soul.
There are so many temptations offered me--
I am afraid.
I wish to remain as pure
as a shaft of frosted winter sunlight,
glorious and bold, clean and bright
But oh, these feelings and desires
blasting my will to and fro,
like a spark caught up by the wind.
Sometimes I feel like a column of fire,
immolated by confusion and rebellion,
restrained only by the glint
of common sense that flickers in between
the flashing changes in my mood and want.
Oh Mother Goddess,
protect me from the reckless desires
that take over my mind and soul without invite.
For I wish to grow strong in your wisdom.
I wish to love my body and consider it sacred.
Only it doesn't seem to fit me right now . . .